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| Selfishness of the world and I. Failings of a person. This cog we call life and the society that drives it. Tainted, bitter, impatient, not exactly words a person would want to use to describe themself. I cannot lie nor do I flinch from those black vices that one attribute to the deviants, outcasts of society. Don't associate with him because he's not a good example. Whatever, I tire of this autodeception. Do you donate to a cause to help the cause or to feel better about yourself? Do you help the old lady across the street because you feel good that you did something "good?" I know there are those that geuinely believe they sacrefice for a real cause. Honestly, more power to them. I on the other hand, will not be one of the masses that try to jump the band wagon. This world, life, is about survival of the fittest. If you don't succeed, you lose. We're not simple animals? Oh but we are, what makes us so different? Our opposable thumbs? Fuck that, that's just just another weapon. We fight a different war of competitiveness then the "animals."
I will do what it takes to get what I want. I will break what rules I can for gain. I won't lie to myself about my ulterior motives. Other people are obstacles in the way of our own well being. I won't lie and try to justify stepping on someone else for personal gain. For those that wish to continue the charade... get the fuck out of my way, and don't look so shocked when you are cast aside, only to wish you had done it first to someone else. Peace be with you, or burn in the ashes. Whatever suits you better.
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| Been busy with lots of things. I really do have a one track mind sometimes. Lots of things have been happening, lots of things are still the same.
We got a puppy, she's 3/4 Husky and 1/4 wolf, drr. Began training her on peeing on paper pad and outside, she got pooping down after 2 days. But peeing, her bladder needs to hurry up and grow, she needs to go every hour or so. She is a big wake up call tho, makes me think twice about having a kid, which makes me think about my age and where I've been and where I'm going. It seems I've made a lot of wrong decisions in my past. Things keep moving fast, espcially Time. Need to go back to school, who knew, I'd become a statistic, heh. It's ironic, I've always thought myself capable, but falling short sure slaps your bleedin ass pretty hard. Am I happy at the moment? I am, gernerally, I suppose. Am I satisfied with the turn of events, partly. There are MANY things that I would like to change.
Time moves on, I don't know whether to forget the past and never look back or pay espcial attention to it. I'm torn in many directions. I feel like I've made myriad sacrefices before and this is what I have to show for it. Education: half assed finished. Career choice: scattered. Money: lacking. It took nearly 12k and a year to pull myself out of my depression. But, time is short and money is lacking, where do I go? I'm slowly remembering/letting myself rely on another person, but it's a very slow process. It may not be fair, but I absolutly abhor being disappointed, I don't want to feel let down, by others... or by myself.
On a side note, name our dog. She a white husky, 2 months old and has energy up the wazoo. She's the first thing that's made me feel old/tired. | | |
| We can only live and react to life the best we can. How can one go about pleasing everyone. The worst of us are the kindest at times and the best of us can be the antagonist. It's amazing what perspective can do to any given situation. Extenuating circumstances, friend or foe, Everything happens for a reason, right? To who's benefit? Perhaps, by following my instinct and my heart, I've become the worst there is. I've become that which I set out to do when all of this began, huh. Then, I am complete? Heh... This feels right, but there are still so many questions, so many doubts, I'm taking risks and chances that I would have shied away from before. But do I care? I'm a bastard now... meh | | |
| New pics up! Boarding from Jan 2nd and Jan 8th!
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