Been busy with lots of things. I really do have a one track mind sometimes. Lots of things have been happening, lots of things are still the same.

We got a puppy, she's 3/4 Husky and 1/4 wolf, drr. Began training her on peeing on paper pad and outside, she got pooping down after 2 days. But peeing, her bladder needs to hurry up and grow, she needs to go every hour or so. She is a big wake up call tho, makes me think twice about having a kid, which makes me think about my age and where I've been and where I'm going. It seems I've made a lot of wrong decisions in my past. Things keep moving fast, espcially Time. Need to go back to school, who knew, I'd become a statistic, heh. It's ironic, I've always thought myself capable, but falling short sure slaps your bleedin ass pretty hard. Am I happy at the moment? I am, gernerally, I suppose. Am I satisfied with the turn of events, partly. There are MANY things that I would like to change.

Time moves on, I don't know whether to forget the past and never look back or pay espcial attention to it. I'm torn in many directions. I feel like I've made myriad sacrefices before and this is what I have to show for it. Education: half assed finished. Career choice: scattered. Money: lacking. It took nearly 12k and a year to pull myself out of my depression. But, time is short and money is lacking, where do I go? I'm slowly remembering/letting myself rely on another person, but it's a very slow process. It may not be fair, but I absolutly abhor being disappointed, I don't want to feel let down, by others... or by myself.

On a side note, name our dog. She a white husky, 2 months old and has energy up the wazoo. She's the first thing that's made me feel old/tired.